My hustle has left the building.

And I don't feel bad‼️

Hello angels. You thought you were rid of me. Not so fast……

See the thing about a “practice” is that it’s done regularly. How regularly? That’s up for the practicer to decide.

When I decided that I would be commencing my writing practice this winter, I pretty much knew that the habit would fall off around the holidays.

As I’m learning in this phase of life right now, it’s your intention, or mindset that will make all the difference when it comes to times where the habit / goal you’re working on may experience a break in consistency due to external events.

I’m a recovering hustler. If you’re an entrepreneur, you get it. Hustling is what you need to do to survive.

You have to put your own personal wants & needs aside for years, in the name of making a dime. It’s a combination of starvation mode & delusional confidence mixed with willpower & hopefully, support from friends & family that keep you going.

But these last two years, after about 2 severe burnout instances and about 1 smaller meltdown a month, I reached my limit.

It all started when we brought home our puppy…

And it really came full circle when I tried to return to the work life I had left.

I just couldn’t do it anymore.

After feeling the visceral change in my body & the panic from incessant deadlines, expectations, need for instant action - CONSTANTLY…

I tried, I really did.

But instead of lamenting my inability to be a slave to the capitalist system by returning to the never ending hamster wheel…

I’m building a new path instead. One that’s gentler on my mind, and heart.

That’s why when I embarked on this journey of an official "~writing practice~” I decided that taking breaks is okay.

Because I’m a writer.

Just because I take a short break, doesn’t take that away from me.

In my former mindset, giving in to a break for a habit is easily something that could have caused me to throw in the towel.

But when this habit is for a lifetime, what’s a couple weeks’ pause?

And as I finish this article, I’m glad I resisted the small voice in my head saying “what’s the point?”

Because this writing is for me. And I am proud of myself. For being gentle with myself. But following through on what I want to do.

And here’s to hoping it all leads me to a place where I can share this mindset with others who could use it. 💖